Blending mysticism and web design – why and how will that work
Why did I choose to blend such apparently opposite areas of interest – web/graphic design and mysticism/the occult? Truth is, I don’t have a definitive answer, but what I do have is a story and a vision, but the why itself? Perhaps that can become more apparent as I lay it out and live the path.
I’m a firm believer that being vulnerable with yourself, with the ones around you and being able to express your vulnerability, especially through various form of arts – is an absolute quality, a means of alchemy and an act of transformation. I used to love graphic design as a teenager, so much so, that I managed to turn it into a little “side hustle” at just 17. As time passed, worldly pressures become so big, that my love for my art had to become small.
Throughout the journey that followed immediately after, I fell into the online spiritual community that “adopted” me, for a while. I got mesmerized by the law of attraction content creators, by their energy check-ins and new moons rituals and “get ready for”-s, and I truly fell deeply into a trance that I knew I would have to rip myself out of, to get out, if ever.
The “ever” ended up coming, but it came up in such a way that – it turned me into one opposing force: a force that dares to ask for validity, for science and action. A force that is unable to sit and pray to their higher self for miracles any longer – one that rather sinks into their darker self to find answers.
It’s safe to say personally that when it comes to anything spiritual related – I’m a “been there, done that” kind of person. The meditations, the workshops, the frequencies, it’s all consumed and integrated, and I’m rather wondering now, why the pull towards the occult, still, why the need for deeper answers and falling into a pit of never ending questions?
I do feel called to recognize that I’m not alone in the search for the meaning of life, and to also recognize, that the meaning of life can be as simple as: what you make of it.
All of this being said, after many years of self-discovery it’s become clear to me that needing to blend mysticism and art in all the forms I know how to access it, is a healing creative path I’ve laid for myself, one that is so unknown that makes me want to run to the side and hide, rather then face forward.
I’m not sure where I’m going, but I know stepping into the unknown, whether I’m in the dark or light, is as necessary as breath itself.
